Hello, ladies and Gents! I left off my last post with a first session with a potential new Master, Adam. I still wasn’t sure about him, and was still getting over Will, so I didn’t know if it would last or not. He was definitely a distraction for me but I wanted to just see how things went, day by day.

There were a few things I was a bit concerned about with Adam. For one, when I was at his place the one time, and I left, it was a bit of a walk to my vehicle and being that it was very late, I would have thought he would offer to walk me to my car. It wasn’t an awful neighbourhood but also not the best.

Another thing was that he always wanted me to come over late, which for me, was tiring, especially when I had to work in the morning the next day.

He also wasn’t as attentive as I prefer. Now, I am certainly not the clingy type, but I do like attention, even in the form of a text, here and there. He seemed very busy with his job, so I’m not sure if that was the reason why or if it was something more. If I feel like the person I’m interested in doesn’t make the effort to talk or see me, then I will back off. It just doesn’t work for me.

Lastly, I wasn’t sure if the connection for me was there. I’m always very aware when I have a proper connection with someone, and I’m also aware when I don’t. I will usually give it at least a few times/dates with someone in the beginning to give it a chance, but typically I know from the first meet either way.

But I wanted to wait and see how things would go. So, I met with him again…at his place. We had a sexual D/s session, late at night, and then I left almost immediately afterwards again.

It was a good session but all of my concerns about him were still in my head. I just wasn’t sure.

Then, on another late night, we had a third session. Again, it was good. He was a strict Dom, which I liked, but there was a sexual position with him that seemed repetitive. This bothered me a bit because it was the exact position my ex-husband always wanted me in so it got old after awhile. Plus, for me it’s a very intimate and vulnerable position, one where I like to know the person more to do it so often.

After the third session, I still had my concerns, and they were getting worse. I knew it was time to end things. So I did.

He tried to get me to reconsider, but I was done and I knew that. I can’t force things with someone, nor do I want to waste their time while I try to.

After that, I went back online to rejoin the dating websites, as well as the fetish one.

Adam contacted me there, many times, again trying to get me to reconsider. I finally stopped answering him because every time I did, he would just message me more and more.

This didn’t stop for the next two years. He eventually also found me on a social media website and contacted me there several times too. I kept blocking him on all of these places, but on the dating sites, he would just create new profiles and contact me again. We were in contact through a messaging app initially and I had to completely delete it and re-create a whole new profile because he wouldn’t stop there either.

It was insane. Thankfully, he only knew of the area I lived in, not my address. He also didn’t know where I worked. He didn’t actually know my last name either, so when he searched for me on social media, he would have only been able to search by my first name and sift through everyone in my city with that first name, which is a common name.

This happened a few years back now, but more recently he tried “following” me on a different social media website and I removed and blocked him on there.

It is shortly after that that I meet someone new…from the fetish website this time. Stay tuned for what’s to come with that in my next post…