It has been a while since my last post. I have had some readers ask for more so I knew it was time to continue my story…because there is definitely more to tell.

I write this post with a heavy heart, so it might not be as happy-sounding as previous ones. I apologize for that. I have a loved one who is very, very sick and will not recover, so my mood is pretty somber. But I will write this post as best I can. Let’s get into it…

I last left off with my somewhat of a threesome although it was very minor for a threesome as there was no actual sex involved. So can we actually call that a threesome?? Probably not. But it was something. Something that I loved. As I ended my last post, I had said I wanted more of that with Mr. Vanilla and his BFF, Justin.

After that night, I thought about it a lot. Yes, it was minor, but it was HOT! I wanted it to happen again but more this time. I wanted the actual threesome, not just dipping my toes in the water so to speak. You know…penetration (to put it nicely). Not only that, but they had pleasured me during that session, and I wanted to do the same for them. After all, as a sub, I do like to show my servitude towards the man (or in this case, men, plural) I’m with.

One night, my boyfriend and I were going out to a club and meeting Justin and another friend of theirs there. Now now, I know what you’re automatically thinking here, and the answer is no, there was no foursome that night. It felt a bit awkward at first chatting with Justin there though because I hadn’t seen him since that three(ish)some that night. It had been at least a couple of weeks. But he’s a very easy-going guy so it didn’t take me long to feel more comfortable with him again, talking as friends. What thought was in MY mind though? After we are done at this club, will Justin be joining my boyfriend and me at his place? I sure hope so.

We stayed for a couple hours and then went back to my boyfriend’s…sans Justin unfortunately. I didn’t tell Mr. Vanilla at the time, but I was disappointed about it. I did end up admitting it to him at a later date though.

It was shortly after that that my relationship with Mr. Vanilla ended. Not because of that. It was because he had commitment issues. So I never did get my second time. An actual threesome was still a fantasy of mine, preferably with 2 Doms. That was my ultimate fantasy.

After he ended things, I went onto a dating site the following day. Now, I am aware that sounds like a quick move on time, I can assure you, with him, it was not. He was infamous for dumping me due to his commitment issues. Yes, I would always go back so not the smartest move on my part, I know, but this was his last chance. I was definitely done this time. I had sat around being sad about him way too many times before this last dumping, so he had wasted enough of my tears and sadness. Plus, I am picky when it comes to men so I thought it would take me awhile to even find someone. By then, I would be long over my now ex. Well, the joke was on me…

Two days after being on the dating site, with my G-rated profile by the way (no mention of being submissive), I started chatting with someone. Right off the first message he sent me, he had my attention. I knew he had read my profile because he made a cute joke about something I had in it. He got a check mark just for reading my profile, but also for not just typing out a single “Hey…s’up?” Okay, maybe men my age don’t say the “s’up” part but you get my drift.

So, I of course responded. I joked a bit back and the conversation continued from there. I felt that initial connection, you know, that spark you get. I enjoyed messaging with him a lot. We messaged that day and the next, and then a tiny bit the following day. But then he just didn’t reply. I was confused because our conversation had been flowing so well. Weird, not to mention deflating.

I waited a day and then decided to make one last ditch effort. I sometimes did this when things were flowing well with someone and I thought there was potential there. I sent him what was going to be my last message to him if he did not reply. It was a short message basically saying it seems like you may not be interested so I wish you the best of luck in your search on here.

Well…he replied. He said he was definitely interested and just wasn’t on the dating site a huge amount. So we chatted that day and then he said something that really catapulted things for both of us.

Tune in next time for the conclusion to that conversation. Until then…